I'm sitting here on the verge of tears. I don't actually know what has me so upset. Wait, I do know. It's Nothing in Particular. I injected myself with my Lupron this morning and then I added my Gonal-F...a dosage of 300. I'm sure that the Gonal-F is already messing with my hormones.
I feel sad and down. The complete opposite of what I have been feeling the last couple of days. The last couple of days have been splendid...I'm thinking positive thoughts, I'm smiling, I'm daydreaming good things...all of it. However today, I'm just down in the dumps. The only thing I can come up with for my mood is the injection this morning. Great. I can't wait to add another dose of 150 of Gonal-F this evening AND Menopur and yet more Lupron.
If I'm feeling this way with just one dose in me, I hate to see what I will be like after several days of stimming. My husband will not be a happy camper, that's for sure. I will have to keep myself busy at home as to not cry at the drop of a hat or pick a fight with him. I feel like I could do that, too. I feel a bit of anger brewing for every little thing he has done to annoy me over the last 24 hours (not that it's been much, but there are things). The last thing I want to do is start a fight but there is part of me right now that would welcome the chance to blow off some steam.
Man, oh man. I don't remember feeling like this the last time I was stimming. It was 2 years ago so I guess anything is possible. I'm trying to focus on my ovaries producing some really good follicles with very mature, normal eggs. My emotions are all over the place and I'm going to need something to focus on to keep myself in check.