Monday, April 25, 2011

4dp5dt - Spring Break is Over

My Spring break is over and I'm not at all happy about it.  I have not taken that much time off (during nice weather months) in years.  I didn't HAVE to do anything, really.  I just puttered around and did what I WANTED to do.  I loved every minute of it.  Some of the things I did while I was off:  got my oil changed, saw a movie with the Little Guy, got a pedicure, shopped for ME (I got 2 shorts, 2 capris, 1 jeans and new sandals for $140!), straightened up the garage, tried new recipes, got waxed, took naps...what's not to love?

A quick "welcome" to anyone visiting for ICLW!  It's nice to have you here.  You can get a quick glimpse of what my TTC history looks like over in my side bar.  I am currently in my 2ww of my final attempt at conceiving a child.  The cycle went better than I expected in some areas and has been a little disappointing in others.  I keep telling myself that "it is what it is" at this point.  We transferred 2 "ok, grade C" (my doctor's words) embryos last Thursday.  I'm trying not to get wrapped up in too much hope and confidence while also trying to stay as positive as I can.  The voices in my head can be very conflicting at times.  :-)

Thanks to a couple of my blogging buddies I know that today my embryo(s) should be burying deeper into my lining.  I'm hoping that is the case.  I'm not feeling anything, of course.  Well, aside from the constant ache of my boobs.  They have been hurting since about day 3 of my bcp.  It eased up a little once I started my stims but then as my E2 continued to rise and we added my trigger shot to the mix they have started hurting again.  Yesterday they began hurting even worse.  I think the Estrace twice a day and the Edometrin 3 times a day is catching up to me.  I can hardly bear to be without a bra.  And it's not like I have a full rack, either.  I'm a measly A cup for crying out loud  This is probably the only time in my life that I'm glad to be small chested.

I'm back at work and it sucks.  The weather is wonderful outside and I'm stuck in here.  Man, I wish I could be a stay at home woman.  BJ took today off to spend the day with the Little Guy, it's his last day of Spring break.  They are going to have a guys day.  I'm not sure what that entails, exactly, but I'm sure I'll hear all about it later.

I'm going to write a quick post in honor of NIAW and "Bust a Myth" shortly.  I have a myth that I'd like to bust.  I only wish I were brave enough to really "come out" of the Infertility Closet.  Here is a picture of my little embabies.  They aren't much to look at but they are ours and I am loving them with my whole heart right now.  The one on the left is the "better" one.  They are both pretty fragmented but I'm still hoping at least one of them sticks.


Alex said...

Your Spring Break sounds wonderful!!! Been thinking of you - oh I hope those little embies burrow deep and stick!!!

Leslie said...

I am sorry I do not post much anymore but wanted to let you know I am thinking of you and sending sticky vibes!

Lara (NoodleGirl) said...

TJ, don't worry about not feeling anything. I never felt anything during the 2WW and, honestly, nothing until the baby starting moving at 5 months! My big tummy was my only symptom! **TONS OF BABY DUST**

Amanda said...

Beautiful picture. Not many people can say they have a picture of their baby(ies) in egg form! Hoping they are burrowing deeper and deeper and getting cozy :)