Thursday, April 21, 2011

Quick Update on Transfer

First, thank you to everyone that has commented and offered me reassurances this cycle.  You really have helped me deal with all this craziness.

I have wanted to update several times over the last couple of days but I didn't want to give my fears a "voice", you know?  If I write out all the crazy thoughts and fears that have been trying to make their way to the front I feel like that would be giving them too much power over me.

I cannot tell you how glad I am that I took this week off of work.  It has helped my stress level tremendously and I seriously think it has saved my sanity.  I had a nice day with the Little Guy on Monday and then Tuesday was spent at the mall shopping (all for ME!) and getting a pedicure.  Yesterday I got a bikini wax and went to the grocery store with a list a mile long and didn't even feel stressed about it.  I came home and baked cookies and made the recipe on the side of the Chex box for some really yummy snacks.  I laid down on the couch and took a short cat nap with my kitties.  Gizmo laid right next to me and just purred me to sleep.  My boys came home and we sat on the porch for a while and then went to dinner.  I watched the hockey game (that we won in double OT!!) and had a blast stressing about something other than my embabies.  Keeping myself busy with things I actually like doing has been such a blessing.  I have said many prayers for our embabies to just keep growing for me and telling them that I will be coming for them today.

My nurse called me yesterday with my time to report to the clinic - 2:15 for a 2:45 transfer.  I had an "early compacting" embryo, an 11 cell embryo and one that she didn't fully understand.  She said that it was 8 cells on Tuesday and the report yesterday said "no change" but also said "early compacting".  I decided not to Google anything and just enjoy my day as stress free as possible.  As the day went on I got more and more butterflies.  Not the sick feeling but like an excited feeling.  All I kept saying to myself is that I didn't want to hear from my nurse or the lab today...I just want to show up and have my embabies transferred to their new home.

I had some plans for today before leaving for the clinic.  They are an hour and a half away so I have to plan carefully.  With it being a lot of people's Friday (since tomorrow is Good Friday) I was anticipating a lot of traffic to deal with.  My plans changed when my cell phone rang a few minutes ago with the clinic's number showing on the caller ID.  I didn't want to answer it.  My heart sank.  My nurse sounded way too chipper for the news that I just knew was coming.

However, that bad news never came.  All she was doing was seeing if I could come earlier!!  Holy Hell she scared the CRAP out of me.  So now I will be arriving at 11:45 for a 12:15 transfer.  I asked her the status of my embryos and she said that they would be transferring #3 which is an early blast.  Number 2 is early cavitating and #1 is a blast with an inner cell mass.  I will be googling all of that as soon as I'm done here.  I want to be informed when I get there and when I speak with the embryologist.  I called BJ to let him know the news and of course he wanted to know why they wanted me earlier.  I didn't ask why, I was too relieved to hear that my embryos are still viable.  Men.
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I will be doing some googling and then taking a shower and running to the store to get Easter basket stuff that I have totally forgotten about and then heading to the clinic.  Thank you all so much for being here for me!  Please keep the positivity coming...I really need it now.

12 comments:

A said...

giant load of positivity coming your way!!! so you will have one embie along for the ride? praying he/she snuggles in tight!!!

(i have yet to get easter stuff, too!)

Pie said...

Blasts! Great news! And don't read too much into when they want you in, it most likely means they had less retrievals than they thought they would (which they do first) so they can move up the transfers. No biggie.

I'm so excited for you! Good luck today!! I'll send you every sticky vibe I have!!

Allison said...

GOOD LUCK TODAY!!! Sending tons of positive thoughts your way!

Lissie said...

Good luck!!!

someday-soon said...

Wonderful news!!! I loved this site for looking at blast pictures, http://www.advancedfertility.com/blastocystimages.htm. Tons of PTs for you and the three amigos today =)

Jenn said...

I'm so excited for you! :) Thinking good thoughts, and sending them your way!

Alex said...

Great news! So excited for you transfer today!!! Then rest up, my dear!!!

Rebecca said...

Good Luck! I'll be thinking of you.

callmemama said...

That sounds like great news - a blast to transfer! Hoping your transfer went really well today. Can't wait to hear an update :).

Jenni said...

Congratulations on the transfer. I hope tit went smoothly. FX.

Lara (NoodleGirl) said...

Yay blasts!!! SO exciting! I have such a good feeling for you this cycle, hon!! Give us an update when you get a chance! {{{HUGS}}}

Anonymous said...

I'm googleing&not getting an answer or maybe I am but don't want to accept it.I was susposed to have a transfer today but was told tomorrow instead cause my embryo didnt change for the day before.I need to know does this mean I will not have a transfer??is my embryo dead.pls help