I took the first step. Now I sit here and wait for the phone to ring and hope that it does. I called the OB/GYN that I had a consult with in October and left a message with his office that I'd like to talk to him about my case. I'm going to ask him what he thinks of prescribing me 50mg of Clomid for a month or 2. I'm nervous as hell because I've never been this proactive. I've never outright asked for something without a doctor first recommending it to me. I hope he calls me back because the receptionist/nurse said that he can be "inconsistent" with phone calls. We'll see.
It's CD1 and I wanted to do something special for myself. So I'm giving myself some hope. I know the realities of it and that the Clomid probably won't do anything for me other than make me ovulate (which I do on my own anyway) but it will make me feel less helpless, like I'm actually DOING something to get knocked up. Hell, maybe it will make me ovulate on a more regular day like CD13 or even *gasp* CD14.
Please call me back, doctor.