Sunday, May 1, 2011

10dp5dt - OK, Now What?

From this morning, with the brand name test that states it can give you a positive up to 6 days before your missed period.

A little about yesterday:  We were doing some yard work, raking to be exact, and BJ asked me if I should be doing that and I said I wasn't working really hard, mainly just using my arms.  And then I said to him that I was a little surprised that he didn't ask me about it.  He said he didn't know that I tested because I didn't say anything.  Keep in mind that we are trying to talk in code because the little guy is with us this weekend.  I told him it was inconclusive and then he was really confused.  After we were done, the LG went to play with the neighbor and we came inside and I went and got the test with the blue line.  Here's our conversation:

Me - what do you see?
Him - a blue line
Me - what do you see in the other window?
Him - a light blue line...what does that mean?
Me - I don't know
So I had to explain that 2 lines is positive and only 1 line is negative.  I also told him that it was a cheap test and he said that he would be like me and not believe it until I took a good test.  He asked me how dark the line should be and I said that it doesn't really matter, as long as it's there.  He wasn't convinced and neither was I.

I had 2 dreams last night about getting 2 lines.  Each time I woke up I was more and more convinced that as soon as I peed, the window would be blank and it would all be over.  I woke up at 5:30 unable to sleep any longer.  I got out of bed at 6:15 because I had to pee and I knew that I had to get this over with.  So I peed and was scared to turn the test over.  Then I saw the line and I started to lightly cry.  I want this to be real but I don't know how to accept it.  I see how light the line is and I panic that it's not real.  I know too much.  I know words like "chemical pregnancy", "blighted ovum", "miscarriage".  I'm scared but happy...confused and afraid to take this for what it might actually be.  I can't even type or say the P word when referring to myself.

BJ woke up after I got back in bed and asked me if I peed.
Me - yes
Him - and?
I reached over to the nightstand and showed him the test.  Keep in mind, he's blind without his contacts.  He squinted to see it.
Him - that 2nd line wasn't there before you peed?
Me - no, it was blank...and this is the good test.  but I still don't believe it.
Him - what is it supposed to look like?
I put the test really close to his face so he could see the gray writing that explains what the results should look like.
Him - well, that's good.
Me - yeah, I'm not scheduled for blood work until Wednesday...I'm going to go insane before then.

So that's pretty much it.  I now have a 2nd pink line.  I'm still not sure what to make of it.  I'm too scared to admit that it's real for fear it won't be there tomorrow morning.

19 comments:

Anonymous said...

Two lines on a FRER at 10dp5dt!!! I think that's reason to be very excited. Can you call and schedule a beta for tomorrow!?! Squeeeee!

WaitWhat

Anonymous said...

you are pregnant :)

Pie said...

Whahooooooooo! Now that is for sure two lines! Ok, you must call the clinic and get your beta sooner. That way you will believe it more. But that is a solid line, a solid pink FRER second line. It's beautiful. :)

someday-soon said...

Ok, I'm not going to contain it any longer...YIPPY, your eggo is preggo my friend 8-) My FRER looked very similar, such a beautiful site. If you're anything like me you'll pee on any stick you can get ahold of from not to your first ultrasound *lol* I'm so, so happy for you!

Auntie Sissy said...

does 10dp 5dt basically equal 15dpo?

A said...

Now what? YOU ARE PREGNANT!!!! Don't worry about how dark the line is- I took tests for a full week after my first BFP and one of them at the end of the week was slightly less dark, and it didn't mean anything bad.

Take a deep breath and enjoy this day!! I am so happy for you!!! Congrats MAMA!!!

Lara (NoodleGirl) said...

Listen, lady, I know you're trying to be calm and not jump to conclusions, but TeeJay? You're preggo! Move up that beta!!! Call your nurse today, tell her you got took a HPT and it's positive and don't take no for an answer on getting a beta tomorrow morning. Congrats girlie!!! I can't wait to hear the beta!!!

Willow said...

Yep, that's a positive pregnancy test! And my first beta was 8dp5dt, so I think you're clearly in range for a real result. I know it's hard to get excited when there are still so many milestones to reach, but right now i think it's worth celebrating the fact that you are pregnant! But I understand if you don't feel that you can yet, in which case I will celebrate for you :)

Fran said...

Sweetie I checked the pics of my tests. That line is probably darker than my test at 10dp5dt. I'd be hopeful. I know it's scary and unknown, but it's a big step forward and you should try and embrace it!

hollygandco said...

I just started reading the other day, but I wanted to back up what Fran said - that picture is pretty much exactly what mine looked like at either 15 or 16dpo (I can't remember!) Also, I just looked at my blue-dye test, and on 13dpo, it's suuuuuper super faint, probably even less conclusive than yours! If you're in the mood to compare, here's the link: http://hollygandco.wordpress.com/my-current-pregnancy/

I know it's scary and feels so much like the rug will be pulled any moment, but everything appears beautifully good and right for how far along you are. Congratulations. :)

This crazy life of mine... said...

OMG!!! I am so freaking excited for you. What a fabulous second line. Get that beta sooner than later. I wish I could give you a big hug!!

Esperanza said...

Um, that is two lines and there are no ifs, ands or buts about it. You need to be excited! I know bad things can still happen (believe me, I know) but you have to celebrate what you have!

And get in for a beta stat. They can't deny you it, can they?

mommyodyssey said...

This is fantastic! I know you're in shock - but get your butt to a lab and start getting those betas monitored! Yay!

gracieinbrooklyn said...

Oh I hope, I hope, I hope, I hope!!!! Sending you wishes that ALL the experienced ladies who have commented are right.

AplusB said...

Awesome!! Hoping so hard that this is it for you!

Carlia said...

YAY!!! congrats on your BFP! that's so awesome! good luck not driving yourself crazy before the beta. i hope it goes well!!! oh, and thanks so much for stopping by my blog last week!

Baby Hopes said...

Congratulations!!! So exciting!!!

Alex said...

YAY!!! So happy for you - that's a positive test, my dear!

Pie said...

Ok, just saw your update. I will be obsessively checking your blog after 1pm your time. Fingers crossed!!!