Tuesday, May 3, 2011

12dp5dt - Beta Results

38

Now I know why yesterday's test was lighter than Sunday's.

Have to go back in Thursday morning to see if by some miracle this baby sticks around.

Not holding out any hope.

Thank you all for your support and I'm sorry that I don't have better news to report.

This fucking sucks.  I'm such a sucker for hope.  Fuck hope.

21 comments:

someday-soon said...

I know you don't want to hear it but a girl in my IVF crew had a first beta of 14 and now has a perfectly healthy baby girl. It happens. I'm hoping it happens for you {{{HUGS}}}

Pie said...

Oh damn, damn, damn. I'm so sorry, TeeJay. I want to hold onto a morsel of hope, but you're right, hope can bite you. I wish I could give you a huge, long hug in person right now.

Anonymous said...

Oh no Teejay. I'm hoping upon hope for you.

WaitWhat

This crazy life of mine... said...

I am still hopeful for you but I also totally understand how you feel. I too wish I could give you a big hug... Thinking about you!!

Auntie Sissy said...

I'm very sorry. Flat out fucking sucks :(

Fran said...

Oh sweetie, I'd feel the same as you, but this is why we are here, to keep hoping for you. Love, Fran

Esperanza said...

I'm sorry TeeJay. It's not over until, well you know. But I understand your feelings.

A said...

praying for you right now in a big way (HUG)

Alex said...

Sending you so much love and hugs right now... Everything's crossed that your little one hangs around and sticks!!!

AplusB said...

Shit, I am so sorry. Lots of (((hugs))) headed your way.

Mommy-In-Waiting said...

(((hugs))) I am so sorry you are having to go through this. Keeping you in my thoughts.

mommyodyssey said...

don't give up yet! I've seen this happen before with another blogger, and very recently with a great outcome.
Crossing my fingers for you that it sticks!
And if not - remember you are not alone.
*huge hugs*

hollygandco said...

I am so very sorry. I'm praying for you, your husband, and your little bean.

Leslie said...

I am so very sorry! I have been through similar and know it is hard! My first beta was a 33 so I am hoping that your little bean is a fighter and sticks!! My thougths are with you and your DH!!

Rebecca said...

I still have hope that this one sticks.

Lara (NoodleGirl) said...

You hang in there, TeeJay, and we'll do the hoping for you. Hold tight until Thursday and keep sending good thoughts to that bean. Tons and tons and tons of P&PTs!

Allison said...

Hoping w/ all my might. Miracles DO happen. (My first beta was 25; second was 34. I was devastated but the little bugger stuck around and I'm 23w.) I'm praying for an amazing outcome for you. ((((HUGS))))) I know how hard this week is.

HopeBPatient said...

Oh TeeJay. I'm so sorry. And you're right. Hope sucks. So, we're here to hold it for you. We'll hold it until we know more. Take care of yourself and hang in there.

Lissie said...

So sorry honey! Let us keep hoping for you so you can protect your heart. Sending big hugs!

suchagoodegg said...

I am hoping so very very very hard for you sweet friend. xoxoxoxoxoxo

Mel. said...

I'm so sorry about your first number! I'm keeping the hope up that you'll be one of the 'urban legend' success stories everyone talks about.... Huge hugs to you!!!