Thursday, March 22, 2012

So Much For That...

I was so excited to get my consent forms and my calendar in the mail yesterday. And to top it off my meds have been ordered and will be delivered Monday!! All very exciting stuff. I should have known it was not going to be smooth sailing.


I received an e-mail from my donor coordinator this morning that my donor has a conflict with the dates and we will be pushing everything back by approximately a week. Seriously? The spoiled, selfish, bitter infertile that lives inside me is really pissed about this change of events. As soon as the ride gets going we have slam on the brakes. I don’t know why things just can’t go as planned around here. BJ is having a pretty bad day so I haven’t even told him yet. He’s such a negative nelly that I don’t need to hear anything out of him about this.

I’ve waited almost 11 years so what’s another week, right? Hmph. I’m TIRED OF WAITING. I’m tired of getting my hopes up about something only to be smashed down again. I know it’s only a week (or so) but good grief! I know I don’t have any room to be bitching right now. A very nice young lady is going through a lot to donate her eggs so that we may have a chance at having a baby. I GET that. However, I think I’m entitled to be little miffed that we are being delayed. Maybe I don’t have that right, I don’t know.

All I know is that now retrieval is tentatively set for May 2. Fingers crossed that we don’t get delayed anymore. Thanks for letting me vent...even if it might be unwarranted.

12 comments:

Alex said...

I remember when I found out my first appointment with a RE had to be delayed, and I burst into tears on the phone with the receptionist! You don't have to explain how any changes in plans freaks you out! Sorry about this!!!

Leslie said...

I am sorry to hear about the delay! Hope it is the one & only hurdle & everything is smooth sailing from here on out!!! Thinking of you!!

newbie said...

There's nothing more annoying than planning and getting all excited for a particular date, and then having to face delays. That's one of the worst parts about IVF. Thankfully it's only a week - annoying, but not tragic. Here's hoping the time passes quickly!

Mo and Will said...

i'm so sorry for the delay! : (

mo

Augusta said...

Those delays feel like such blows, don't they. You completely have the right to be disappointed and mention it on your blog. This is where you come to talk about things as they are, without sugar coating.
I'm sorry things got delayed. Hope your new schedule is solidified very soon so you have your sights set on some specific dates.

Pie said...

it sucks to have delays- i totally get it. but i will be sending lots of good vibes on May 2nd for her to crank out many great eggs for you.

Mark and Amy said...

Hang in there! The end is in sight!

Mommy-In-Waiting said...

(Hugs) I'm sorry for the delay, I hate waiting when it comes to anything infertility related. I have to be patient when it comes to everything else, but when it comes to my future baby, something that should be my natural right as a woman, something that should be free and I have to PAY for it let alone schedule appts for it and depend on others for it, I get LIVID. So I totally feel you. It isn't fair and it stopped being fair years ago. You have every right to be ticked, and be tired of waiting. We are all bitter and are just ready to have our babies in our arms where they belong. I hope there aren't any more delays and that the retrieval goes smoothly. Wishing you all the best!

Rebecca said...

One week is always years when an infertile is doing the waiting. I really understand how its annoying. I do wish you the best and I hope that the outcome gives you a take home baby or two.

Trisha said...

After 11 years I'd be impatient too! Wishing you the best of luck!

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mommy someday said...

I'm sorry about your delay. Best of luck!

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glitterandrainbows1 said...

Ugh, sorry to hear about the delay. I wish you good luck and success with this process!

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