Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Trying to be Patient

According to my records, I am either 14 or 15dpo. According to FF, I'm 12dpo. My temperature was still above the coverline this morning. It's not unusual for me to have a longer than average leutel phase. It's not unusual for me to not spot anymore. It is unusual for me to know that we timed our bd'ing pretty well this cycle. I'm not overly moody. I'm a little gassy, but I did have chili for lunch. :-) I'm not overly tired yet. The boobs are still a little sore. I'm starting that phase in my cycle where I'm tempted to believe that maybe things could be different this time around. I'm sure I'm setting myself up for disappointment, but I can't help it. I'm sitting here trying to be patient awaiting AF's arrival. It's not easy. My mind is running amok thinking of the possibilities. My stomach has butterflies right now as I type this. I know I'm crazy for even thinking it, but what if?

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I want to thank all of you for your kind remarks on my previous post. Reading the nice things you guys say warms my heart. I was almost brought to tears. For real. You are such a great support system and I'm so glad that you are here for me. I'm going to write my post very soon about my cut off date/age but right now all I can think about is the fact that I haven't started spotting yet and I don't have any of my strongest indicators that AF is going to show up. I know that the likelihood of a bfp is slimmer than none, but I guess you just never know, right?

9 comments:

someday-soon said...

You're right...you never know. I always got my hopes up in the 1WW, no matter how hard I tried not to. I've got everything crossed for a giant BFP, GL!

Pie said...

I'm still here hoping for you too, TeeJay. Maybe wait a few more days then try and evil pee stick??

Alex said...

You never know!!! Oh, I really hope...

Mel. said...

I'm keeping everything crossed for a very happy 'what if'!!

A said...

I have been reading but commenting from my phone can be tricky. I am praying for you- I know this part of the 2ww is torture (hug)

Iam veRONIque said...

Will be praying for you. May the Lord continue to bless you with strength and wisdom. Though we may be oceans a part I want you to know that we are one family that will surely support you in any way we can. All the best and God Bless.

Lara (NoodleGirl) said...

Hope hope hope!!!! I know I've said this before, but if I could get pregnant at 39 with a healthy baby after losing 3, ANYONE can, ART or not. I've got everything crossed for your miracle. HUGS!!

callmemama said...

Teejay, once again we're right in the same spot in our cycles, waiting for AF to arrive. This time, though, I have to thoughts of pregnancy since we completely missed O due to my travel. A new experience for me, definitely! Definitely the most relaxed 2ww ever :).
I hope AF does surprise the heck out of you by not showing up!

Stephanie said...

Still here hoping and praying that this is the cycle!