Tuesday, July 3, 2012

The Big Day - 10w5d

Today is our first OB appointment.  To say I’m nervous is a bit of an understatement.  I keep telling myself that the baby’s fine, baby’s fine, baby’s fine.  I’m hoping that the baby has been listening to me.  I’m also hoping that God has been listening to me.

If all goes well today, BJ will start spreading the news.  I will tell my parents tomorrow.  My step mom will be off work tomorrow so I know that she and my dad will be together and I will have them put me on speaker phone.

Our appointment is at 1:15 ET.  I’ll be walking into that office as a pregnant lady for the first time ever.  The last time I was there it was about a month or so after our loss.  I saw the Nurse Practitioner that time and had to relay the whole story to her.  She was very kind and was sad with me (at least it felt that way).

Today is a different story.  Today we are pregnant (baby’s fine, baby’s fine, baby’s fine) and BJ will be with me.  I will need to give a history and I will have to tell her that we did DE IVF.  We live in a small county and my husband knows everyone (practically) and I really don’t want to be gossiped about.  I’m going to ask her to keep that on the down low.  I want our child to be able to tell whomever she/he wants about how he/she came to be.  I don’t think it needs to be broadcast to every tom, dick and harry that feels like spreading some office gossip, you know?  Hopefully, after this initial appointment it won’t be brought up again.  I’m 36 so there is probably some extra testing that I can bypass since the egg itself was not of advanced maternal age.

I’ve looked at a couple of tickers to see what the baby should look like now and WOW!  What a difference from the little gummy bear that I saw a few weeks ago.  My apps on my phone pretty much compare the baby to fruit so it’s not that easy to get a mental picture of what’s going on in there.  The ticker that shows the baby is amazing to look at.  I so hope that we get to have an u/s today.  I really want to see the baby and see it moving around in there…as well as hear the heartbeat.  I’ve only seen the heartbeat on the screen so hearing it would be wonderful.

I don’t usually blog from home but given that this is a really big day for us I’m going to break that rule.  BJ will just have to find something to do while I pop back in here to let you all know that baby’s fine, baby’s fine, baby’s fine.

Fingers crossed for a great appointment and a great update.

8 comments:

someday-soon said...

Wishing you SOOO much good luck today...not that I think you need it =) The baby is fine, fine, fine after all! Can't wait to hear about your OB appointment. I did want to warn you though that ultrasounds are kind of rare at the OB...they may just listen with a doppler, weigh you and set up your 12 week NT scan if you'll be having one. Only a few hours now =)

Augusta said...

I'll be thinking of you this afternoon, TeeJay. I really believe that the baby's fine. Confirmation of that will be great, so I'll check in later today.
I hope you do get an u/s today and get to hear the heartbeat.

Esperanza said...

Keeping all appendages crossed!

Alex said...

Thinking of you today!!! I'm so looking forward to the baby's fine post!!!

Pie said...

Everything crossed for a great visit!

And off topic, but did you change the font color on the blog? I had a hard time reading it today. Maybe I'm going blind...

Mel. said...

Thinking of you and sending along tons of good luck for your appointment!!

EC said...

Good luck! I'm so excited for you and hope your appointment goes well so you can start sharing your great news!

Anonymous said...

Oh please do let us know how it went! Just for the record, having worked in the medical industry, it is illegal for anyone to share your medical background. Small county or big county, patient confidentiality is very important. How your baby came about is your personal medical information!

LOTS AND LOTS OF GOOD THOUGHTS AND WISHES!!! In the meantime, I'll be freakishly refreshing your page to hear your good news:)