I can't believe it's been over 2 years since I've been here. I miss this place. And I want to come back. I want to share more of our story. Even if no IF's read anymore I can hopefully shed some light on what it's like to be a 40+ mom after infertility sucked the life out of me. Maybe I can help people with blended families (and maybe they can help me, too) figure out how to make all of this work.
I have an IRL friend that has gotten me through more than one trial and tribulation since the birth of Baby Girl. There's so much to say. Until I can get here and write more regularly just know....Baby Girl is amazing. She's healthy (knocking on ALL the wood), she's active, sassy, sweet, sensitive, adorable, creative and just a wonderful little human. She's also really good at pushing buttons and patience to the brink. Lol We are not perfect, far from it, but she and I are extensions of each other. She has filled my life with everything I hoped she would.
Our family dynamic is in some turmoil. The Little Guy (not so little anymore) is 16 and things have not been going well for the last 2 years. Well, it's been building for many more years than that but now that he's growing up things have really been on a downward spiral. It makes me so sad to see it happening and knowing that I can't really do anything about it.
It's a tricky time of year for us financially and so the stress of that is weighing heavily on me, too. Sigh
There's much to say and I will catch everyone up little by little. I miss you all so very much. And I miss writing. Gosh, just this little post feels so good coming off my fingertips. I will be back, and soon!