I have so many things that I want to post about and not enough time to write it all out. That's what happens when I take over a week off from blogging. For now, though, I want to write about my hard time I've been having.
If my IVF had worked, I'd be a mother of a newborn right now. I would have had the baby the last week in March. March 30th would have been my due date. I'm having a hard time with this. It breaks my heart every time I walk past bedroom #4, or even look in the room.
Our neighbors (S & K) came over to get their son one night and we gave them the official tour of the house since they hadn't been in since we moved in. The guys were in the play room and I was showing K my scrapping room (bedroom #4). She asked me if BJ and I had thought about having one of our own. And I told her a very brief "yes, we've tried and I tried with my ex and I just can't get pg." She inquired about fertility treatments and I told her we'd done both IUI and IVF. And then I told her that I would be giving birth next week (this conversation was a couple of weeks ago, obviously) if it had worked. She seemed sympathetic. And she gave me the line of at least time is on my side since I'm only 33. And then she told me that she and S have been off BCP for about a year and nothing has happened. They aren't trying but they aren't preventing, either. She said that she really hopes we get to have a baby. I had to agree with her on that.
It's so hard to know that I should be on maternity leave right now. I should be entertaining many visitors and accepting baby gifts on behalf of my little one and showing off a newly decorated nursery. Instead, I'm sitting here thinking about what should have been and what probably never will be. I still hope that it can happen for us, but I'm also a realist. It's been so long and we've tried so much, that I don't think there is a way for it to really happen. Especially since BJ is just about at the end of his rope with this. And I don't blame him. There has to be a cut off time. And I will have to accept it when it comes. I just hope and pray that I get my miracle before his rope, and my time, run out.
I'm 8DPO today. AF will be here by Monday or Wednesday at the latest. Of course, the hopeful side of me hopes she will just stay away. But the realist in me knows that she's just gearing up in there to ruin everything for me. I don't like to be so negative but sometimes I just can't help it. Everything about IF has been negative for me and sometimes it's really hard to find a silver lining. I don't even know if there is a silver lining for me. I'd like to think that we all have silver linings but I just don't know.
I read a blog the other day by someone that graduated IF with a healthy pregnancy. She said that she wanted the rest of us that were still waiting to not give up hope, that one way or another we would become mothers. It struck a chord with me to read that. I started thinking about the Little Guy. Is he my answer? I'm a step-mother to him. Is that my 'motherhood'? Is that the only way I get to have a child in my life? I wish I knew the answer to that. I'm grateful for him, for sure. I'd be a miserable human being if I didn't have him in my life. I'm actually going to do some posting on how hard being a step-mother really is in normal circumstances but especially while TTC. I wish I knew the answers. I wish I knew if my only chance at motherhood was being a step-mom. And maybe God has already answered me and I just wasn't listening. I'm hoping that He gives me the chance to be a mother to my own child...a full mother...with a child/mother bond and everything glorious that comes with that.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Happiness Is...
- spending Easter with my husband's family. Holidays are for families to get together and spend some good quality time with each other. We made the most of the day and the weather was perfect.
- reconnecting with my younger brother, whom I haven't seen or talked to in quite a few years, via FB. Still working on opening the lines of communication, but it's a start that he accepted my "friend" request.
- semi-homemade strawberry shortcake treats. And when I say semi-homemade I mean I bought the stuff and put it all together. :-) Such a yummy treat in warm weather.
- making rice in my $12.99 rice maker...and loving it! The Little Guy and I like to eat rice that has the same consistency of the rice we get with our Chinese food. We can eat it with butter and sugar for breakfast, which I love. He likes to have rice with soy sauce (which I don't like) for a snack sometimes. I tried out my rice make and it worked great!
- reconnecting with my younger brother, whom I haven't seen or talked to in quite a few years, via FB. Still working on opening the lines of communication, but it's a start that he accepted my "friend" request.
- semi-homemade strawberry shortcake treats. And when I say semi-homemade I mean I bought the stuff and put it all together. :-) Such a yummy treat in warm weather.
- making rice in my $12.99 rice maker...and loving it! The Little Guy and I like to eat rice that has the same consistency of the rice we get with our Chinese food. We can eat it with butter and sugar for breakfast, which I love. He likes to have rice with soy sauce (which I don't like) for a snack sometimes. I tried out my rice make and it worked great!
Monday, April 12, 2010
Quick Update
I've been a very bad blogger lately and I apologize for that. I haven't been posting. I've hardly commented and I'm barely even reading anything lately. Last week at work was so busy I barely had time to leave my desk to tinkle, let alone any blogging time. I had 2 co-workers out last week (one is out again this week) and we had a lot going on in their absence. I've been busy at home with Easter, baseball, neighbors and everything else. And to top it off, I'm sick. I thought I was just having bad allergies since pollen has been so high lately but as it turns out, I have a virus.
I'm in the 2ww. I'm pretty sure I felt ovulation start last Monday evening. FF put me as ovulating on Tuesday because of my temps. They've been on the high side for me this cycle and I'm not sure why. However, I stopped temping because I've been coughing and hacking most of the night keeping myself awake and knew that nothing would be accurate. So I guess I'm 7DPO today. We did some BD'ing last Sunday which was good timing for us so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. When I felt the ovulation pains they were on both sides. So I'm hoping the Clomid did the trick and produced at least 2 mature eggs!
We were invited to a party by one of our new neighbors (R and L) last Saturday night. We went with the neighbors that live next to us (S and K) and had a nice time. R and L really know how to party. And their house is beautiful. I'll write more about that experience later. On Easter, we had a big egg hunt with my SIL and her family. Then we were invited to her in-law's for dinner. There was much playing outside and sitting on porches that day as it was spectacular weather. Last Monday, the SIL and her 3 kids joined the Little Guy and me at the White House for the Easter Egg Roll. It was hot and super crowded but well worth it. The Little Guy and I went last year and we knew we'd enjoy it more this year if he had his cousins with him. And I was a lucky winner of the online lottery. It was fun. Tuesday I had a follow up with my doctor about my hips. My x-rays and my bloodwork came back fine. Yeah! He wants me to take Calcium, Vitamin D, and Glucosamine for a while and see how that goes. Glucosamine is very expensive, let me tell you. I was surprised. I bought the store brand and it was still almost $40 for 120 vitamins. Oh well, I'm willing to try it if it will help my pain. I started out with a sore throat on Sunday then it got progressively worse. I figured it was allergies because I felt ok, just tired. I started coughing Wednesday. It became a real problem by Thursday night. I decided to see the doctor Friday. He said it's a virus and to take cough medicine. It was the same if not worse all weekend. I had to go sleep on the couch because I was keeping BJ awake. That took away from our morning snuggle time that we like so much on the weekends but at least he was able to get some sleep. And wouldn't you know that he started feeling bad yesterday afternoon and now he's home sick. He is much worse than I was because he was running a fever during the night and this morning. I'm glad he's home resting but I feel awful for getting him sick. We had to take the Little Guy to get his baseball pictures done Saturday and his first game is tonight! I have adjusted my work schedule to leave 30 minutes early so I can make it on time.
There's more to update but I will take things one step at a time. I have picked up a few more followers and I feel terrible for not giving them something to read. Not that my readers just sit around waiting for my next post with baited breath, but you know what I mean. I get disappointed when the people I read don't update often enough for me. :-) Not that I think my life is so interesting...but I think you get the point. Anyway....
I hope to catch up with everyone this week so you may want to check for comments on old posts because I'll be making my way through everything.
I'm in the 2ww. I'm pretty sure I felt ovulation start last Monday evening. FF put me as ovulating on Tuesday because of my temps. They've been on the high side for me this cycle and I'm not sure why. However, I stopped temping because I've been coughing and hacking most of the night keeping myself awake and knew that nothing would be accurate. So I guess I'm 7DPO today. We did some BD'ing last Sunday which was good timing for us so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. When I felt the ovulation pains they were on both sides. So I'm hoping the Clomid did the trick and produced at least 2 mature eggs!
We were invited to a party by one of our new neighbors (R and L) last Saturday night. We went with the neighbors that live next to us (S and K) and had a nice time. R and L really know how to party. And their house is beautiful. I'll write more about that experience later. On Easter, we had a big egg hunt with my SIL and her family. Then we were invited to her in-law's for dinner. There was much playing outside and sitting on porches that day as it was spectacular weather. Last Monday, the SIL and her 3 kids joined the Little Guy and me at the White House for the Easter Egg Roll. It was hot and super crowded but well worth it. The Little Guy and I went last year and we knew we'd enjoy it more this year if he had his cousins with him. And I was a lucky winner of the online lottery. It was fun. Tuesday I had a follow up with my doctor about my hips. My x-rays and my bloodwork came back fine. Yeah! He wants me to take Calcium, Vitamin D, and Glucosamine for a while and see how that goes. Glucosamine is very expensive, let me tell you. I was surprised. I bought the store brand and it was still almost $40 for 120 vitamins. Oh well, I'm willing to try it if it will help my pain. I started out with a sore throat on Sunday then it got progressively worse. I figured it was allergies because I felt ok, just tired. I started coughing Wednesday. It became a real problem by Thursday night. I decided to see the doctor Friday. He said it's a virus and to take cough medicine. It was the same if not worse all weekend. I had to go sleep on the couch because I was keeping BJ awake. That took away from our morning snuggle time that we like so much on the weekends but at least he was able to get some sleep. And wouldn't you know that he started feeling bad yesterday afternoon and now he's home sick. He is much worse than I was because he was running a fever during the night and this morning. I'm glad he's home resting but I feel awful for getting him sick. We had to take the Little Guy to get his baseball pictures done Saturday and his first game is tonight! I have adjusted my work schedule to leave 30 minutes early so I can make it on time.
There's more to update but I will take things one step at a time. I have picked up a few more followers and I feel terrible for not giving them something to read. Not that my readers just sit around waiting for my next post with baited breath, but you know what I mean. I get disappointed when the people I read don't update often enough for me. :-) Not that I think my life is so interesting...but I think you get the point. Anyway....
I hope to catch up with everyone this week so you may want to check for comments on old posts because I'll be making my way through everything.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
CD8
Well, I took my last Clomid pill last night. What I can tell you about this round of Clomid so far, is this:
- My ovaries are twinging for sure. Some of these twinges (on both sides) have been pretty sharp and taken me by surprise. The twinges have stopped me in my tracks on more than one occasion.
- I'm emotional. I'm only on 50mg and that usually doesn't affect my emotions very much. This time around, though, it's making me feel like I have PMS. I'm quick to tear up and have all sorts of sad thoughts. And I'm quick to snap and get ticked off at little things.
I hope I'm not messing anything up with my insides by taking this Clomid without first seeing if there were any cysts in there. And I hope these hormones don't mess with my already somewhat unpredictable cycles. Am I being too paranoid? I think it's the medicine making me freak out about all this right now. I don't remember Clomid having this affect on me before, but it has been a year since it's been in my body.
The POAS will begin tomorrow mid-morning to try and detect my LH surge. I'm sure it will be negative tomorrow, but with my cycles you just never know anymore. My guess is that I will hit my peak days this weekend. I'd love to get some good BD'ing in Saturday and Sunday but will probably only manage 1 of those days. We'll have to play it by ear I guess.
I called a woman on TV a bitch the other night. I was upset with myself for saying it after I said it. We were watching a new show on hgtv about first time home sellers. This couple wanted to sell their 2 bedroom, small rambler and buy a bigger house because they are ready to start a family. She must have said that at least 3 times before I wished her luck with that. I also proceeded to tell her that just because you buy the house with 4-bedrooms doesn't mean that you get to fill them with babies. And hopefully you (she) isn't stuck with a great house that just ends up being empty. At the end of the show they finally sold their house and bought a really nice 4 bedroom home. As I was commenting on how pretty the house was, she announced that in about 7 months there would be 3 of them living there. So I called her a bitch. Not a very nice thing to do. Especially since she seemed like a very pleasant young woman. And I also was mad at myself because I don't really want other women to have difficulties TTC. It sucks and it can suck the life right out of you. But does it have to be so damned easy for some people? Why can't we infertiles just say "we are ready for a family" and just get knocked up? Can't there be a "standard" of waiting time before you get your BFP? Let's say that no one gets pregnant unless they've been trying for at least 6 months. Then on your 7th cycle, once you have suffered through 6 negatives, you get your BFP. I think I was really starting to wonder if something was wrong by my 6th failed cycle. And I wanted a BFP so bad that I could taste it. If we have a waiting time, then we will appreciate those positives even more when we get them on that 7th cycle. That way, no one woman suffers any more than any other woman. AND...we all get babies!
If only it were that easy. Oh yeah...for most couples it IS that easy.
- My ovaries are twinging for sure. Some of these twinges (on both sides) have been pretty sharp and taken me by surprise. The twinges have stopped me in my tracks on more than one occasion.
- I'm emotional. I'm only on 50mg and that usually doesn't affect my emotions very much. This time around, though, it's making me feel like I have PMS. I'm quick to tear up and have all sorts of sad thoughts. And I'm quick to snap and get ticked off at little things.
I hope I'm not messing anything up with my insides by taking this Clomid without first seeing if there were any cysts in there. And I hope these hormones don't mess with my already somewhat unpredictable cycles. Am I being too paranoid? I think it's the medicine making me freak out about all this right now. I don't remember Clomid having this affect on me before, but it has been a year since it's been in my body.
The POAS will begin tomorrow mid-morning to try and detect my LH surge. I'm sure it will be negative tomorrow, but with my cycles you just never know anymore. My guess is that I will hit my peak days this weekend. I'd love to get some good BD'ing in Saturday and Sunday but will probably only manage 1 of those days. We'll have to play it by ear I guess.
I called a woman on TV a bitch the other night. I was upset with myself for saying it after I said it. We were watching a new show on hgtv about first time home sellers. This couple wanted to sell their 2 bedroom, small rambler and buy a bigger house because they are ready to start a family. She must have said that at least 3 times before I wished her luck with that. I also proceeded to tell her that just because you buy the house with 4-bedrooms doesn't mean that you get to fill them with babies. And hopefully you (she) isn't stuck with a great house that just ends up being empty. At the end of the show they finally sold their house and bought a really nice 4 bedroom home. As I was commenting on how pretty the house was, she announced that in about 7 months there would be 3 of them living there. So I called her a bitch. Not a very nice thing to do. Especially since she seemed like a very pleasant young woman. And I also was mad at myself because I don't really want other women to have difficulties TTC. It sucks and it can suck the life right out of you. But does it have to be so damned easy for some people? Why can't we infertiles just say "we are ready for a family" and just get knocked up? Can't there be a "standard" of waiting time before you get your BFP? Let's say that no one gets pregnant unless they've been trying for at least 6 months. Then on your 7th cycle, once you have suffered through 6 negatives, you get your BFP. I think I was really starting to wonder if something was wrong by my 6th failed cycle. And I wanted a BFP so bad that I could taste it. If we have a waiting time, then we will appreciate those positives even more when we get them on that 7th cycle. That way, no one woman suffers any more than any other woman. AND...we all get babies!
If only it were that easy. Oh yeah...for most couples it IS that easy.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Happiness Is...
- the Spring trees sprouting almost over night. The pear trees, the Cherry Blossoms, the dogwoods, the bright yellow bushes that I don't know what they are....simply beautiful!
- owning (and knowing how to use) a DVR. I've never had one until the new house. I'm not sure I could watch TV without it. :-) Bathroom break? No worries...just pause it. Didn't quite see that pool in the backyard on house hunters? No worries...just rewind it. Don't feel like watching 45 minutes of commercials during American Idol? No worries...just tape it and watch it while fast forwarding through all the BS of that show. I could go on an on about how I love my DVR...
- making an Easter basket for the Little Guy and BJ. A little panicked that I haven't bought anything yet and Easter is THIS weekend! How did it get here so fast? But still excited to carry on my yearly tradition of making baskets.
- looking forward to Friday....I'm off and it will be sunny and almost 80! Holy Moly! It doesn't get any better than that. I'm pretty much tied to the house to wait for the HVAC guys but I can open the windows and sit on the front porch for as long as I like.
- FINALLY finding 2 chairs and a small table for our front porch this past weekend. We bought them on sale at Target and I really like them. They are dark wicker with a light gray cushion. The table is pretty much the same wicker color with a frosted glass top. It's round and it folds right away if needed. We are however, wishing that we would have looked into how much it would have cost to expand our porch to 6 feet instead of the standard 4 as the chairs make it a tight squeeze to get by. But it is what it is and I love our new porch furniture...if we could only find some deck furniture that didn't cost an arm and a leg. :-)
- owning (and knowing how to use) a DVR. I've never had one until the new house. I'm not sure I could watch TV without it. :-) Bathroom break? No worries...just pause it. Didn't quite see that pool in the backyard on house hunters? No worries...just rewind it. Don't feel like watching 45 minutes of commercials during American Idol? No worries...just tape it and watch it while fast forwarding through all the BS of that show. I could go on an on about how I love my DVR...
- making an Easter basket for the Little Guy and BJ. A little panicked that I haven't bought anything yet and Easter is THIS weekend! How did it get here so fast? But still excited to carry on my yearly tradition of making baskets.
- looking forward to Friday....I'm off and it will be sunny and almost 80! Holy Moly! It doesn't get any better than that. I'm pretty much tied to the house to wait for the HVAC guys but I can open the windows and sit on the front porch for as long as I like.
- FINALLY finding 2 chairs and a small table for our front porch this past weekend. We bought them on sale at Target and I really like them. They are dark wicker with a light gray cushion. The table is pretty much the same wicker color with a frosted glass top. It's round and it folds right away if needed. We are however, wishing that we would have looked into how much it would have cost to expand our porch to 6 feet instead of the standard 4 as the chairs make it a tight squeeze to get by. But it is what it is and I love our new porch furniture...if we could only find some deck furniture that didn't cost an arm and a leg. :-)
Monday, March 29, 2010
Projects
Hello, everyone. I will first get to the TTC stuff since this is an IF blog, after all. I'm on CD6 and I have been faithfully taking my Clomid since Friday. I have felt a few twinges here and there but nothing out of the ordinary. For all I know, I could have a cyst in there messing things up. That's what happened with my first 2 attempts with IUI. I couldn't start the Clomid because of a cyst. Let's hope that there is nothing going on in there but good old fashioned follicle growth...let's say 2 to 3 really good ones. I have 2 more pills to take and then on CD9 (which happens to be April Fool's Day) I will start to POAS of the opk kind. And if I follow my 'general' timeline, we should be BD'ing on the weekend...always a good thing. However, it does fall on the weekend that we have the Little Guy. How does that always happen? Again...positive thoughts.
As some of you know, maybe all of you if you've read back entries, we bought a house in December. This house is a brand new house. And if someone ever tries to tell you that a new house is the way to go because you don't have to worry about doing any projects, they are completely full of it and should be smacked upside their head. :-)
So far, the things that we want to get done are as follows:
- new master bath lights: we hate the builder lights
- extra shelving in our closet and the Little Guy's closet and our laundry room
- kitchen cabinet hardware
- ceramic flooring in kitchen and back splash
- blinds in all windows
- ceiling fans in bedrooms and living room
- light in office
- hooks on back of master bath and hall bath doors for towels...the racks are for 'pretty' towels
- hooks on laundry room door to hang clothes as they come out of the dryer
- switch dryer door to open on the left side
- some sort of organization in the garage
- finish basement with craft room and bathroom
- wood flooring in office, dining room and foyer
- better grade carpet in living room...very high traffic area
There's more that I can't think of right now. And this does not even include all the decorating that needs done and the decisions involved in that process. I can tell you that we have accomplished some things on the list. Other things will wait until we get our tax money. Which is already spent before it even gets here as we need a shed and a lawn tractor and we want to plant some trees.
Saturday we actually found a ceiling fan for the living room. I really like it...now. I hated it yesterday while BJ was trying to put it up. Everything was going great until he had to house the wires in a compartment that was too small. All hell broke loose in our house yesterday afternoon. He was mad and cussing and I was trying to be helpful (even though he's a pain in the butt to try and help because of course I can't do anything right) and kept my mouth shut. It got to a point where I went off and did laundry and left him to sulk. He finished the fan and I didn't even have to help anymore. All was well because it worked when we turned it on. While at the store Saturday, he decided he wanted to put a cat door in our basement door so that we can close the basement door. Smokey's litter box is downstairs and he can't stand the door being opened the least little bit. Another project. And this one was almost as bad as the fan. There were no written directions, only a few pictures. He cut the hole in the door and it was all downhill from there. Things didn't fit, didn't line up, wouldn't stay straight...you name it, it went wrong. I actually thought we were going to have to buy a new door and forget the whole thing. We finally got it installed....and she's scared to death of it. We have been working with her and I'm hoping that she uses it today while we aren't there to put her through a few times. And in my opinion....the cat door bothers me more (and looks worse) than the basement door being open a crack. But whatevah, that's just MY opinion.
We picked out our cabinet hardware and now we need to purchase all of it. One of the master bath lights have been replaced and I'm not exactly sure why he hasn't done the other one. Our bedroom and the Little Guy's playroom have ceiling fans. We have one for the 4th bedroom but it's just sitting on the floor upstairs. A couple of hooks have been hung up. We bought pegboard and hooks for the garage Saturday, just need the shed so we can start getting things out of our way so we can work on organizing the garage. The dryer door was finally switched over 2 weekends ago.
I'm not sure my marriage can take any more projects, at least not ones where 2 people are required. :-) I'm not the most 'construction' minded or talented person out there, but when I try to help, I AM trying to HELP....and I'm doing my best. My dad, my first husband and now this husband all seem to think I can read their minds and that I should be as strong as they are and know what they want me to do without them saying anything. Ugh. How do I end up with these impatient men? I think from now on, I'm going to recommend that he do projects on his own or he can recruit his new buddy next door. They can get together and ooze all the perfection they want while I sit back and just enjoy the finished product. :-)
So if anyone ever tells you that you won't have as many projects at home if you buy a new construction house....please smack them for me. Thanks!
As some of you know, maybe all of you if you've read back entries, we bought a house in December. This house is a brand new house. And if someone ever tries to tell you that a new house is the way to go because you don't have to worry about doing any projects, they are completely full of it and should be smacked upside their head. :-)
So far, the things that we want to get done are as follows:
- new master bath lights: we hate the builder lights
- extra shelving in our closet and the Little Guy's closet and our laundry room
- kitchen cabinet hardware
- ceramic flooring in kitchen and back splash
- blinds in all windows
- ceiling fans in bedrooms and living room
- light in office
- hooks on back of master bath and hall bath doors for towels...the racks are for 'pretty' towels
- hooks on laundry room door to hang clothes as they come out of the dryer
- switch dryer door to open on the left side
- some sort of organization in the garage
- finish basement with craft room and bathroom
- wood flooring in office, dining room and foyer
- better grade carpet in living room...very high traffic area
There's more that I can't think of right now. And this does not even include all the decorating that needs done and the decisions involved in that process. I can tell you that we have accomplished some things on the list. Other things will wait until we get our tax money. Which is already spent before it even gets here as we need a shed and a lawn tractor and we want to plant some trees.
Saturday we actually found a ceiling fan for the living room. I really like it...now. I hated it yesterday while BJ was trying to put it up. Everything was going great until he had to house the wires in a compartment that was too small. All hell broke loose in our house yesterday afternoon. He was mad and cussing and I was trying to be helpful (even though he's a pain in the butt to try and help because of course I can't do anything right) and kept my mouth shut. It got to a point where I went off and did laundry and left him to sulk. He finished the fan and I didn't even have to help anymore. All was well because it worked when we turned it on. While at the store Saturday, he decided he wanted to put a cat door in our basement door so that we can close the basement door. Smokey's litter box is downstairs and he can't stand the door being opened the least little bit. Another project. And this one was almost as bad as the fan. There were no written directions, only a few pictures. He cut the hole in the door and it was all downhill from there. Things didn't fit, didn't line up, wouldn't stay straight...you name it, it went wrong. I actually thought we were going to have to buy a new door and forget the whole thing. We finally got it installed....and she's scared to death of it. We have been working with her and I'm hoping that she uses it today while we aren't there to put her through a few times. And in my opinion....the cat door bothers me more (and looks worse) than the basement door being open a crack. But whatevah, that's just MY opinion.
We picked out our cabinet hardware and now we need to purchase all of it. One of the master bath lights have been replaced and I'm not exactly sure why he hasn't done the other one. Our bedroom and the Little Guy's playroom have ceiling fans. We have one for the 4th bedroom but it's just sitting on the floor upstairs. A couple of hooks have been hung up. We bought pegboard and hooks for the garage Saturday, just need the shed so we can start getting things out of our way so we can work on organizing the garage. The dryer door was finally switched over 2 weekends ago.
I'm not sure my marriage can take any more projects, at least not ones where 2 people are required. :-) I'm not the most 'construction' minded or talented person out there, but when I try to help, I AM trying to HELP....and I'm doing my best. My dad, my first husband and now this husband all seem to think I can read their minds and that I should be as strong as they are and know what they want me to do without them saying anything. Ugh. How do I end up with these impatient men? I think from now on, I'm going to recommend that he do projects on his own or he can recruit his new buddy next door. They can get together and ooze all the perfection they want while I sit back and just enjoy the finished product. :-)
So if anyone ever tells you that you won't have as many projects at home if you buy a new construction house....please smack them for me. Thanks!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Meeting New People
As I stated before, yesterday was the Little Guy's first baseball practice of the season. I commute to and from work on a bus. I parked at a different stop (one that we usually get to by 5:45-5:50 at the latest) so that I could drive to the practice location and not miss anything. So of course, the bus is late picking us up. And not just by a few minutes. Another commuter called to check to see where he was. While she was on the phone with dispatch, I saw our bus. He was a block away at a traffic light...stopped because of a police motorcycle blocking the road for a motorcade. Great. Come to find out that the next bus (they run about 10 minutes apart) was at the light, too. When they finally got to our stop, it was 4:50...I was already fuming at being 11 minutes behind schedule. Then traffic sucked the rest of the way, too. Needless to say, I didn't get to my truck until 6:08 then I had to drive to practice. But I did remember to get off at the right stop. :-) I hate being late, to anything. As the saying goes...best laid plans...
Practice was good. I even met new people. And get this...one lady is already living in our development and the other is having a house built there, too. The one, Jenny, has 3 boys and we have already met her husband on a number of occasions at our house while it was being built. They had a house to sell before they could move here and it finally did because they broke ground yesterday for the new house. The other lady, Michelle, has an older boy that we see skateboarding on our way in and out of the development. Not sure we want the Little Guy hanging out down there because I think he may be a little old for him, but her other son is his age so what can we do? He loves to skate and he's always so interested in watching the older boy as we drive by. Will have to keep an eye on that situation. And as it turns out, Jenny's youngest boy actually goes to the Little Guy's daycare 3 days a week. Very small world. They seem very nice and it will be nice to have someone to talk to during the games besides the husband (that usually finds other dads to talk to) and the Little Guy's mother. Granted, these women have kids and I don't, but I don't see them having any MORE kids so that means hopefully no pregnancy announcements.
After practice we grabbed some dinner and watched the hockey game. OMG! What a game it was. My team took the lead, lost the lead, got the lead back and then lost it again with less than 4 minutes to play. It went to overtime and then to a shootout. I thought for sure we were DONE but we came back from a deficit and scored 3 straight in the shootout to WIN! That makes 3 straight over the Stanley Cup champs....YEAH! I can't stand that organization. Yay for my team!
I get to start my Clomid tomorrow and I'm excited about that. I will take it before bed each night and say a little prayer that it lets me grow at least 2 really good eggs in there. It will feel good to be doing something a little more pro-active in this process. I'm a little nervous about getting my hopes up too much, though. I know the reality but knowing how I respond to Clomid, I get a little giddy each time I think about it. Although, the 2 IUI's I did with Clomid didn't yield a baby....no negative thinking! Just positive thoughts coming from me and my ovaries right now.
Practice was good. I even met new people. And get this...one lady is already living in our development and the other is having a house built there, too. The one, Jenny, has 3 boys and we have already met her husband on a number of occasions at our house while it was being built. They had a house to sell before they could move here and it finally did because they broke ground yesterday for the new house. The other lady, Michelle, has an older boy that we see skateboarding on our way in and out of the development. Not sure we want the Little Guy hanging out down there because I think he may be a little old for him, but her other son is his age so what can we do? He loves to skate and he's always so interested in watching the older boy as we drive by. Will have to keep an eye on that situation. And as it turns out, Jenny's youngest boy actually goes to the Little Guy's daycare 3 days a week. Very small world. They seem very nice and it will be nice to have someone to talk to during the games besides the husband (that usually finds other dads to talk to) and the Little Guy's mother. Granted, these women have kids and I don't, but I don't see them having any MORE kids so that means hopefully no pregnancy announcements.
After practice we grabbed some dinner and watched the hockey game. OMG! What a game it was. My team took the lead, lost the lead, got the lead back and then lost it again with less than 4 minutes to play. It went to overtime and then to a shootout. I thought for sure we were DONE but we came back from a deficit and scored 3 straight in the shootout to WIN! That makes 3 straight over the Stanley Cup champs....YEAH! I can't stand that organization. Yay for my team!
I get to start my Clomid tomorrow and I'm excited about that. I will take it before bed each night and say a little prayer that it lets me grow at least 2 really good eggs in there. It will feel good to be doing something a little more pro-active in this process. I'm a little nervous about getting my hopes up too much, though. I know the reality but knowing how I respond to Clomid, I get a little giddy each time I think about it. Although, the 2 IUI's I did with Clomid didn't yield a baby....no negative thinking! Just positive thoughts coming from me and my ovaries right now.
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