Monday, November 23, 2009

Missed the Boat

I ovulated last night. It was CD 10. It snuck up on me and I'm getting annoyed with my body for ovulating so darn early. BJ and I had some adult fun Friday night. Remember that? When you had sex just because you wanted to? The first 12 days of my cycle are a little tricky. I've always been an early ovulator but this is ridiculous. We just wanted to get the "stale" swimmers out of the way to make room for the good ones tonight or tomorrow night. I tested with an OPK Saturday morning and it was negative. Saturday night when I was getting ready for bed, I decided to test just to see...and wouldn't you know it was positive? Sugar Honey Iced Tea! Take the first letter of each of those and you have my response to that nasty little pee stick. I thought I'd still be able to squeeze in some action yesterday before that egg came out. It was not to be. I started feeling the ovulation pains around 7:00 or so. An interlude was the last thing on our minds at that time as I was overly tired for some reason and BJ was annoyed that the computer was not working properly. We ate dinner and then BJ's sister called to talk about Thanksgiving and then football came on. I was more than willing to give it a go, but the fact that BJ knew I was fertile put pressure on him and he doesn't like that. So...we missed another month. I know there is a slim chance that there might be a strong swimmer or 2 left from Friday's interlude, but I highly doubt it. Ugh! Why can't we both be 22 again and full of energy and ready to "go" at the drop of a hat? Because that would be too easy. Now I get to go through the next 2ww with little or no hope. I guess that could be a good thing since we are getting ready to move and I will have other distractions. I look at it this way...last cycle we nailed the timing and got a BFN. Maybe I'll get a surprise this cycle since I'm so sure that we missed that ovulation boat. Keep the hope alive....no matter what.

I also want to welcome any new readers/visitors for ICLW! You can get a little bit of background about me from here and here and here. And I do stress little, there's so much more to me that I want to get out there but I just haven't gotten around to it yet. If you are new to blogging, know that there is nothing like it. The support is wonderful. I wouldn't know what to do without my blogging buddies. If you just read and haven't yet started your own (that was me a while back) I highly recommend diving in to writing. It has helped me in many ways, not just with my TTC struggles but with other things going on in my life at any given moment. And I can tell you, those moments are sometimes almost too much to handle. But then I come here and I write and I heal. And hopefully along the way I can help someone else heal a little too.

7 comments:

Kelly said...

Wow! You are an early Oer! Well, I guess the positive side of that is shorter cycles and more chances? Your response (sugar honey iced tea) was funny, but sounded delicous. FWIW, I don't think you missed the boat on this cycle!

Amber C said...

Glad I found your blog! Sorry about your early O. :(

Kristin said...

Hope the surprise ovulation gets followed by a surprise bfp. Good luck.

~ICLW

Anonymous said...

What is this you say about sex just because you want to? That's crazy ;)

I'm hoping you got in there in time and that this cycle isn't a bust.

Anonymous said...

I am also getting pretty frustrated with not o-ing on time, although in my case it seems to be later. It's so freakin' frustrating, but I had already sort of written off this cycle, so I'm not to broken up about missing things (yet). Distractions are wonderful during the 2ww, even if you think there's nothing to wait for. I hope it goes quickly for you!

Mama Bear said...

sorry about your early O-- I know how frustrating it can be!!! hang in there! love your blog!

C said...

I'm hoping and praying that you get a fabulous BFP in two weeks.