I know I said I wasn't testing until tomorrow but I couldn't help it. Let me explain my weakness. I started getting a headache yesterday afternoon. The kind I get about 2 to 3 days before my period starts. I actually still have it today. I also felt some very different kind of twinges in my abdomen yesterday afternoon. It definitely wasn't my ovary as it was lower and more centered. At that point I really didn't know what to think. Many women complain of the twinges and the pains and for a lot of them it really is their uterus working away at sustaining and embryo. I am of the state of mind that those twinges are caused from the extra E2 I'm putting in my body to MAKE my lining thicker than usual so of course I will feel it twinging and pulling, right?
On a whim I stopped in at the drugstore on my walk to work from the bus stop. I bought a cheap store brand 2-pack of tests. The one that is supposed to be as good as the name brand test that can detect a positive up to 5 days before a missed period. I didn't use FMU. I just wanted to put myself out of my misery so that I can get on with my life. So I peed on that stick. And after I washed my hands I picked it up and took a deep breath because I KNEW what I would be seeing....nothing. But that's not quite what I saw.
I was in disbelief and my breath got caught in my throat. Don't worry, I don't really believe it. It's a very faint line and you probably can't even see it in these pictures. It's probably an evaporation line or the last of the HCG exiting my body or the by product of a very cheap test. However, I can't help but wonder if it's real. My heart is wanting to jump all over and do cartwheels but my head is strapping my heart down in a straight jacket at this point. I don't want anyone getting too excited over this. I just was so shocked to even see that faint of a line that I had to share with all of you. I've never even had an evap line to get excited over. I've only ever seen the blank white window staring at me. So now I am even more anxious to get tomorrow's test over with. I need to get out of this limbo pattern so I can figure out the rest of my life.
Please don't send me comments with encouragement to believe this. Please send me level headed, let's wait and see comments, ok? My fragile emotional state will not be able to handle anything else. And I might be the only one seeing this second line anyway. I just checked it again (it's been about an hour since I tested) and it's so light, at 8dp5dt it should be much darker if it's a true positive...I'm sure it's just an evap line or a bad test.
