CD10 - Steady and Slow

Today's title refers to my ovulation cycle and our new house. This time last month, I was ovulating...not so much this time around. In fact, I have taken 4 opk's and they have all been negative. So negative in fact, that a 2nd line is nowhere to be seen. I'm hoping that is because ovulation is still a few days away and not that I have crappy opk's under my bathroom sink, in my book bag and in my purse...I think those are the only places I have stored them. :-) We are trying to time our baby makin' encounters better but the way my cycles have been the past few months has made it tough to do so. I am at the point where I am going to test twice a day because I have noticed that if I am negative in the morning, I could be positive that evening and we don't want to miss anything. My temps are running about what they should. Maybe a tenth of a degree or so higher than normal, but they are not all over the place like last month. At least not yet.


We went by our house yesterday and the workers were there hanging drywall! Yay! Things looked so different with the walls closed in. And the walls where there was no drywall we could see the insulation. The Little Guy was bummed because he couldn't "run through the walls" anymore. He hadn't been there since the electric got put in and now he not only had wires and cables running everywhere but insulation and drywall. BJ talked to the project manager today and pleaded (in a non pain in the ass way) to see if there was any way to get us in the house a week earlier. He said he'd do his best. That's all we can ask, right? The siding guys are there today and should be able to get a good chunk of that done before the rain comes tomorrow. I will go by there after work to check things out. And that reminds me...I need to post some more pictures.


I talked with my clinic last week to make sure they got my request for my medical records. They did, thankfully. I was told that the company that comes in to make copies (WHAT? There isn't someone in your office that can make copies??) will be in today. My request for my records to be delivered to me by tomorrow via e-mail has been noted. That's about all I can do. Keep your fingers crossed that I get them. I actually started a notebook with a quick, non-technical run down of what I have done over the passed 8 or so years. I don't have any bloodwork results or anything like that, but I can at least tell him a quick story. I can't even tell you how many different emotions I'm having over this appointment. I'm excited, but of course I don't want to get too excited because we can't afford any "real" treatments. However, just the thought of talking to someone new about our situation has me all giddy. I never had a real sit down of the getting-to-know-you type with Dr. M so I'm really ready for this. However, I have a feeling when I go in there, I'll probably be stammering around trying to remember my own name. BJ is actually interested in this appointment, too. Of course not enough to come, but he has asked me about it a few times and that's saying something. I have a feeling he will actually listen with both ears when I give him the run down of what the doc and I talked about.

News I Didn't Want

I found my opk's yesterday on the kitchen counter, half under the griddle. BJ never saw them. The Little Guy ended up staying with his mom last night because he wasn't feeling good and she had picked him up from school. Awkwardness avoided.

I tested and wouldn't you know it came up positive? I haven't seen a positive opk since I started using them again 2 cycles ago. Yesterday was only CD9. We BD'd the night before. As you know, BJ doesn't like pressure to get things done. There was no way I could just seduce him without him knowing what was going on. Especially since we had already decided to watch Hell's Kitchen and then Heroes season opener that I had recorded. I told him I tested positive and he made no mention of trying to get things going. I get so frustrated with his attitude about BD'ing. I really don't know why it's so hard to have sex 2 or 3 nights in a row. I'm not asking for 2 or 3 times a DAY. I know scheduling it is not ideal, but when you are TRYING TO HAVE A BABY it makes sense that sometimes you might have to. I'm only fertile for about 2 or 3 days anyway so what is the big deal? I was so bummed to see that positive test yesterday. And now I feel my ovary pushing the egg out and I know that it will be too late when I get home to do anything about it. So here is another month washed up. DAMN IT. Will my baby EVER get made?

The other news I didn't want to get is that my sister is doing worse. Her pain is really bad and she doesn't want to take anything stronger for fear that she won't be able to function properly to take care of her kids. Her hands and fingers are tingling more and she's experiencing more numbness. Her balance is off and she's getting dizzy spells. I told her to call that doctor and tell them that she needs to be seen sooner than 10/15. It's crazy to make her wait. I'm very worried about her and scared for her. I hate being so far away from her. I don't know why any doctor would make her wait like this when her condition is obviously deteriorating. Ugh...I'm so helpless to her.

My temp was elevated this morning all the way up to 98.2. Maybe it was a low grade fever? I'm not feeling very good today. I woke up at 4:30 and that is an hour or so before normal so maybe that was why. I'm starting to wonder if my thermometer is whacked. I brought it with me to work. I temped 30 minutes ago and was at 97.9. A minute ago I was at 98.1. I'm going to trust the opk and my ovary pain to let me know that I'm ovulating today. My temps are too all over the place to take them seriously. I hope they settle in place tomorrow morning for the duration of my cycle.

Ramblings

I just checked on my OPK strips...yes they shipped...but from Washington. They won't be here before I need them. Darn IT and darn ME for waiting so long to order them. Oh well.

BJ called me at work yesterday and out of the blue as we are talking he exclaims, "I want sex...now". Well, of course I giggled like a school girl and we proceeded to play the game of how would we do it at my work (and where) if we could. It was cute and funny and really gets the mind wandering. And it's nice to know that after almost 4 years of having sex with me he still wants to. :-) Of course it didn't happen at my work but we managed to squeeze in some time for it after Hell's Kitchen and at the very beginning of Shaq Vs. This is one of BJ's new favorite shows so we had to be fast. Ahhh the romance.

BJ has been having back pain on and off for over a year now. He has been to the doctor twice for it and has had an x-ray and nothing was found. The doctor asked him to get blood work done TWICE. He didn't. His shoulder has been hurting him for about 2 weeks now. He decided to finally go to the doctor because it was interfering with his work out. The doctor asked him if he was really going to get the blood work done this time. He promised he would. We got the results back yesterday. His cholesterol is a little high at 130 and he has Lyme Disease. Great. I don't know a lot about LD except that it messes with your joints and can cause some neurological issues. I feel badly for BJ because he's only 36 (will be 37 in a couple of weeks) and now he has to live with this for the rest of his life. He already has aches and pains and now he might even have more painful episodes. He has a friend that has it and they spoke yesterday. Of course nothing the friend said was positive. I know there are many worse things to have than LD, but right now I want to feel bad for my husband. It will never go away. He will be on Doxicyclene for 2 weeks. The drug he couldn't tolerate back in November when we first went to the RE and we both had to take it. I hope he does better this time. And here is the selfish me wondering how the drug and the disease will affect his swimmers. I need to look into it. If anyone knows if it will cause a problem I'd love for some insight on this.

I went by the new house yesterday after work and they were finishing up pouring and leveling the concrete walls of the basement. WOW! I forgot to bring my USB for my camera so I can't post any pictures yet. Shucks. I will have to remember that for tomorrow. I plan on going by again today because they are supposed to have the whole basement poured. Exciting stuff, I tell ya.

We were laying in bed watching Friends last night (one of my all time faves) and it was the episode where Phoebe finds out that she's pg with her brother's baby(ies). When she came out of the bathroom and announced it, I got goosebumps. I do every time. I told BJ and he said, "yeah, because it should have been you." And then he proceeded to ask me when I thought I might ovulate. I told him it would probably be this weekend. Hopefully I didn't jinx any babymaking fun by telling him the truth. Maybe I should have said Monday or Tuesday of next week...Nah. I'm sure it will be fine. Yeah, right. Now it's in his head that we have to do it this weekend. But the good thing is that we did it last night so I'm hoping he'll be good and ready for some on Friday or Saturday. Fingers crossed!