10dp5dt - OK, Now What?

From this morning, with the brand name test that states it can give you a positive up to 6 days before your missed period.

A little about yesterday:  We were doing some yard work, raking to be exact, and BJ asked me if I should be doing that and I said I wasn't working really hard, mainly just using my arms.  And then I said to him that I was a little surprised that he didn't ask me about it.  He said he didn't know that I tested because I didn't say anything.  Keep in mind that we are trying to talk in code because the little guy is with us this weekend.  I told him it was inconclusive and then he was really confused.  After we were done, the LG went to play with the neighbor and we came inside and I went and got the test with the blue line.  Here's our conversation:

Me - what do you see?
Him - a blue line
Me - what do you see in the other window?
Him - a light blue line...what does that mean?
Me - I don't know
So I had to explain that 2 lines is positive and only 1 line is negative.  I also told him that it was a cheap test and he said that he would be like me and not believe it until I took a good test.  He asked me how dark the line should be and I said that it doesn't really matter, as long as it's there.  He wasn't convinced and neither was I.

I had 2 dreams last night about getting 2 lines.  Each time I woke up I was more and more convinced that as soon as I peed, the window would be blank and it would all be over.  I woke up at 5:30 unable to sleep any longer.  I got out of bed at 6:15 because I had to pee and I knew that I had to get this over with.  So I peed and was scared to turn the test over.  Then I saw the line and I started to lightly cry.  I want this to be real but I don't know how to accept it.  I see how light the line is and I panic that it's not real.  I know too much.  I know words like "chemical pregnancy", "blighted ovum", "miscarriage".  I'm scared but happy...confused and afraid to take this for what it might actually be.  I can't even type or say the P word when referring to myself.

BJ woke up after I got back in bed and asked me if I peed.
Me - yes
Him - and?
I reached over to the nightstand and showed him the test.  Keep in mind, he's blind without his contacts.  He squinted to see it.
Him - that 2nd line wasn't there before you peed?
Me - no, it was blank...and this is the good test.  but I still don't believe it.
Him - what is it supposed to look like?
I put the test really close to his face so he could see the gray writing that explains what the results should look like.
Him - well, that's good.
Me - yeah, I'm not scheduled for blood work until Wednesday...I'm going to go insane before then.

So that's pretty much it.  I now have a 2nd pink line.  I'm still not sure what to make of it.  I'm too scared to admit that it's real for fear it won't be there tomorrow morning.