Helllooo in There!

I had my baseline u/s and b/w this morning.  I wasn't too nervous about it but there was some underlying anxiety...there still is as I sit here and wait for the results.  I was really supposed to go yesterday as yesterday was CD3 but it didn't work out so I went this morning.  They moved offices so the set up is a little different but the people aren't.  The tech that took my blood (3 vials!) was the one that used to have problems finding my small veins.  She didn't remember me and she had no troubles, which was good.  As I was waiting to be called for my u/s I started worrying about what they would find in my b/w...an even higher FSH level?  Perhaps some anomaly that only affects 2% of women?  My imagination was definitely running away with me.  I was called into the room by one of the head nurses that remembered me from 2009.  She's very nice and pleasant.  The u/s tech was also very nice.  She looked at my records on the screen and said, "well it's the same as in 2009...undress from the waist down and sit on the table."  As I waited for her to come back I remembered back to my last few dates with Wandy and how much anticipation I felt at every encounter.  I started to get antsy because I know how much our bodies can change in a short amount of time and I just wanted everything to go smoothly.

She came back and I laid down and she turned the screen towards me.  I noticed a black circle up where there shouldn't be one.  She said it's a fibroid.  She said it's really small and far away from where a baby would be living.  That didn't reassure me at all.  She measured the lining and everything looked good in that respect.  Then she scanned my right ovary.  There was a cyst...again she said it was small and nothing to worry about.  I've had them before and they have delayed things for me but since I know I will be starting bcp next cycle I'm not too worried about it, either.  I asked her how many antral follicles she counted and she said that I had 4 on the right and 5 on the left.  Not great.  I was hoping for more but such is life.  It doesn't bode well for how many mature follicles/eggs we can produce but I'm not going to think negatively.  I'm not going to get all excited and hopeful, but I'm not going to hang out in the dumps either.

I scheduled my mock embryo transfer for tomorrow morning.  We have a meeting at the Little Guy's school tomorrow (more on that another time) at 2:30 so I will be missing the whole day of work.  I came clean to my boss about our trying again.  She's very supportive and knows what an emotional roller coaster this is.  For my newer readers, my boss has 2 children and suffered secondary infertility while TTC her son.  It took many IUI's for her to conceive him.  She's very understanding but I will still try not to miss much work as I don't want questions from anyone else in the office.

I'm headed out to lunch and I'm sure that is when the nurse will call with my results.  I'll update later if I get a chance.  Wish me luck on a "decent" FSH and other good numbers.